I've found a friend who would be very accepting of me if I told her. I decided to test my friends and family by bringing up the issue of LGBT rights, and debates. I asked them what they thought about it and My friend answered in such a way that I am convinced that if I do come out with my being transgender, I'll be accepted and helped. The next step is to build up enough courage to tell her.
Right now I'm somewhat depressed. I feel like I won't ever be who I want to be, I feel like my heart is being split or torn apart. I'm having a war in my head between what my religion thinks is right, what my parents think is right, and what I think is right. I've had a war in my head like this for more than 10 years now, but now it's so much more prevalent because I don't know how long I can keep this secret. It's not good for my health, it's not good for my self confidence. Me, my body, they just don't connect the way I feel they should. I need to tell someone.